Just Do It

Dear Diary,

I want to write more this year. I’ve been fiddling with trying to make the perfect website and the crooks and crannies of how to use WordPress, when all I want to do is write about my life, things I’ve learned, key things I want to remember and share.

In 8 months time, I will turn 25 years old. I heard something changes within you psychologically when that time arrives. I keep thinking to myself, who will I become when I reach 25. Will I be proud of her?

There is so much I want to do and achieve in this lifetime. I don’t want to play small. I’m done being afraid. You only get one life, so why not make it an epic story.

Today, I want to talk about love. And what is it. I have been thinking about it more, especially since a date I went on last Friday evening. Long story short, he sent me a message back in May 2025 on a dating app, and we ended up sending a few messages every 3 months ish, mostly due to me not being on the app a lot. Back then, I wasn’t in the right place of mind. Truthfully, 2025 was a tough year for me. So, we finally met on 16th January 2025.

This date was wholesome. It was better than I had expected. I almost didn’t go, but my cousin cancelled our plans so I went. We walked around Shoreditch and eventually settled at a bar. My first impressions were that he seemed warm, his voice was soft. About as soft as my voice. And he was calm.

The first thing I noticed was he insisted to carry my bag, where I eventually gave in. He paid for our drinks, and we talked about health, family and ourselves. He seemed really sweet, and some instances I felt we were a little similar. At the end of the date, he kept saying he didn’t want it to end, and I didn’t want it to end either (although I never showed any interest of me wanting to see him again). We even linked arms near the end of the date, and I’ve actually never done that before on a first date. He also made me feel safe enough to say things I generally liked and wanted to talk about.

He was only in London for a day, as he’s kind of a traveller. After the date, I wondered what would have happened if I’d responded quicker to him on that app. He seems like a good person, and I tried my best to be as present as possible during that date. He was sweet, and kind, smart and caring throughout. I don’t want to place any more meaning to it than there should be. Life should be experienced.

Meeting him taught me that there are good healthy men out there. There will be dates, where the other person will make you feel safe, seen and comfortable. There are dates out there, who want to know more about your inner world and are not arrogant or highly egotistical. Perhaps all the inner work I’ve been doing is now slowly turning up in my dating life.

You attract who you are.

To be continued…